New day

*Katie gives a nod and follows Jason out of his house keeping fairly quiet herself on the way back to her apartment. She was feeling a little bit tired but nothing a nice cold shower would take care of.

Once getting to her apartment Katie turns before getting out of the car and gives a smile to Jason. She had happy he was still thinking of Texas. It would bee a nice mini vacation and it would be great to see everyone again as well.*

"Yeah I'd like that. I think some time away would be nice. Not to mention being able to see that cute little sister you have now."

*Katie smiles as she reaches out and gives Jason's arm a pat.*

"I'll see ya a little bit later at work J."

*Katie leaves the truck and toss a wave to Jason before heading inside to take a shower and get dressed only to leave again for work.*

*Jess stairs forward for a moment as she takes a sip of coffee lost in thought and replying.*

"Grab onto something in the light huh? Not easy to do now-a-days. Not to mention people like me don't deserve the light. We are just blotches on everyones perfect world that they would sooner forget about than bother to help."

*Finally looking down at her hands and the tiny cuts and a few bruses left than lined them she lets out a heavy sigh. Jess wasn't sure if she dident mind the darkness or not. At least if she hide away people wouldn't see the dirt, and the past she hid.

As Axel moves closer Jess gives him a sidelong glance. Little leery for a moment but than turns to him a little more.*

"Axel huh, so now I know why they called you grease."

*Jess can't help but give a small smile at the mention to the annoying nickname but still found humor in it.

Looking down at Axel's hand Jess just stairs for a moment before slowly and causioly almost as if Axel might bite reaches her own out and takes his hand giving it a shake.*

"I'm Jess."

*Charlotte picks up her phone and dials Bret's number. She dident have to work untill the afternoon today and thought maybe breakfest might be nice.

Listing to the phone ring and ring and ring she finally gets the answering service.*

"Bre......tttttttttt.....How can you still be sleeping? It's 9 am you should be awake. Why arnt you awake? Well....I flipped a coin and it said I should go to breakfest and I thought maybe you would want to come...but......since your not answering your phone...I guess I will go alone. Unless you get this and decied to come and join me. You knowww....where I will beeeee. Maybe after words I will stop at the bar for a morning beer.....You better not be wallowing....Byeeeee...."

*Hanging up the phone Charlotte rolls her eyes at herself and shakes her head. Hoping out of bed she heads into the bathroom to get ready and than head out to the restront.*

Eyes

Feeling Katie's finger under his chin, Jason looks up at her, sensing and deciphering what she's thinking. As her finger runs along his face, he closes his eyes for just a moment, gently closing some remnant feelings he did not want to be known.

Alright. We start over.

Jason leans back down to finish lacing his boots and listens to the options. "I didn't know where you car was. If it's at your place then I might as well just drop you off so you'll have a vehicle at work." He didn't want to finish off his statement that showing up at TJY with her might not be the best thing, even if they were innocent. No matter what there was or wasn't between them, they were both in a tough spot. No matter whether they cared what other people thought or not, they were still in a tough spot.

Standing up, Jason limps to the door, grabbing a crutch. "All aboard that's going aboard!" he calls.

Trooper comes bounding down the hall, shaking the floor.

Jason gives as little smirk. "Alright, big guy. You're on for today. Come on." He opens the door so the dog can go out first, then holds it open for Katie too before he locks it shut.

The ride to Katie's is fairly quiet... Jason keeps his mind as blank as possible, trying both to relax and not invade Katie's space either. He'd done quite enough of that already.

Pulling up to the curb, Jason puts the truck in park, but keeps it running. "Guess I'll see you later at work. Thanks... for everything, and..." He pauses, not knowing if plans had now changed or not, but was determined to forget about yesterday and any of its implications. He might have let it slip that feelings still existed for Katie...but for now...right now...he would revert back to the way things were in the hopes that awkwardness simply wouldn't exist. "We'll have to talk about going to Texas soon. If, um...if you want anyone else to go along, that's great...Ty might want to catch a ride, or Scott might even like to come so he can spend some time with you."

He gives a grin. "Or maybe you just want alone time, and if that's the case, I'll have the pilot tie me out on the wing so you can fly in peace."


Axel's eyes narrow slightly as he reads into Jess' words. The wheels working in his mind are almost visible. "Maybe you ought to find something to hang onto while you're in the light so you don't fall back again."

He takes a sip of his coffee, letting the warm liquid slide slowly down his throat. He glances back to Jess, and slips onto a stool closer to her, extending his hand. "Name's Axel."


Though Carson is working in the kitchen, he keeps one eye to the front counter, a little bit leery about this guy. He'd been with a good bunch last night, but Carson didn't know him from anyone else, and right about now, he wasn't easily trusting of any man around Jess.


Bret rolls over in bed and grabs his buzzing alarm clock, ripping it from the wall and sending it hurling across his bedroom. Burying his head under his pillow, he shuts out the world. Last night had not gone well...it hadn't gone well at all. He didn't remember if he'd had any plans for today or not...he didn't remember if Charlotte was working today or not...all he knew was that it was too early to get up. With the hangover he felt, any time before noon was too early.


To: Jason
From: Ireland's Neighbor
Subject: Lunch
Hey, Hotshot. You, me lunch today? Chinese? Let me know.
-Scott

Darkness to light

*Katie can feel Jason's emotions change and knows that he is still sorry. She hated when Jason felt bad about something when really he shouldn't anymore. Going over to Jason as her laces his boots Katie brings a finger under his chin and puts pressure to make him look at her in the eyes. Her emotions behind them proving she meant what she was thinking.

Stop thinking about yesterday. Whats done is done and we are both sorry. It's time to move past it and starts towards what the new day. Ok?

Katie gives a smile before removing her finger from Jason's chin and run it along the side of his face for a moment in a friendly manor before answering his question.*

"To my place would be good. Than if you wanna stay and drive me you can. I promise I won't take long, but if you wanna leave after dropping me off that's fine too I can always take my car. One or the other is ok with me."

*Jess is silent for a moment thinking about Axel's question and forming an answer in her mind before speaking.*

"Normally I try to keep my eyes closed as long as I can. Till finally I am forced to wake. This morning, I just couldn't go back to sleep..so I went for a walk and found myself here. So, I guess I get ranked from the darkness into the light, only to fall back to the darkness."

Gentle or roaring

Jason knows he did keep Katie up a little bit last night, but doesn’t bother to point that out. He knew that Katie didn’t mind…her heart was too big.

Eating breakfast, Jason knows it’s been a while since he’s had a good breakfast like this. He usually just grabbed some juice on the way out, and if he happened to be hungry, he might get something from the breakroom. Otherwise, his stomach usually waited until lunchtime for anything like this…. It was a nice change.

Finishing up, Jason heads to take a shower, and is quick about getting ready, knowing that not only is he late, but he’s making Katie late too.

Finally, he emerges from the hallway, his hair still wet, sinking down in the living room chair to pull on his boots to lace them up. “Sorry we’re a bit late this morning,” he apologizes aloud. “Where do I need to take you first? Home? Then work?”

A subtle flux in his emotions signals that he’s still thinking about yesterday, still guilty from their argument…still wondering if they’ve truly moved passed it or not.



Axel returns a smile to Jess and nods. “Mornin’.”

His eyes dancing, he looks at Mabel with a grin. “Nope, I’m good with just the coffee.” Taking a sip, he sighs. “Mm…and it’s an awfully good. Thank you.”

Just sitting and sipping slowly, Axel finally eyes Jess again. “So does the morning ease you gently into the day, or does it come in roaring, disturbing sleep to yank you into daylight?”

Smile

*Jess smiles and gives a wave as she see Carson.*

"I think coffee is what I need this morning. To early for a milkshake yet. Give me some time though I am sure sometime today I will need one."

*Jess gives a small nod to Mable and than to Aerith.*

*Katie smiles as she throws an extra peace of bacon to Trooper and than plates up the food. Placing the two plates on the table one in Jason's spot and one in her own Katie finally sits down.*

"I don't know what your talking about I'm never nice."

*Katie scrunches her noise up and takes a bite of her toast.*

"Nah you were fine last night J. Your not a bother."

*Katie continues to eat keeping the conversation light.*

*Jess looks up holding her coffee and the bell on Mom and Pop's rings. A bit saprised to see Axel alone and than remember he had said last night he would be back. Her eyes following him as he sits down. Relizing she was stairing Jess looks away quick taking a sip of her coffee. As if drawn for some strange reason Jess looks at Axel again giving a little smile as he stairs back to her.*

"Morning."

*Mable gives a nod to Axel and heads to the coffee pot.*

"Now, what kind of restront would this be if I didn't have any coffee first thing in the morning?"

*Bring the cup over to Axel Mable gives him some sugar and milk as well.*

"Did you want anything to eat hun?"

Coffee

Jason's eyes slowly open as the scent of breakfast hits his nostrils. Moving a little, he feels every muscle in his body. It seemed not one wasn't sore. It always happened after episodes like last night's.

Stretching and yawning, he turns over on his back, and then suddenly wonders why on earth he's smelling breakfast. It takes him a minute to remember that he hadn't been alone last night.

Sitting up a little groggily, Jason rubs his eyes and blinks, looking towards the kitchen. Getting himself up, he limps nearer the sound of sizzling and humming. His stomach growls. After getting sick last night, he was now running on empty.

Leaning in the doorway, he just watches Katie for several minutes, a small grin working on the corner of his mouth. He keeps his thoughts to himself.

Finally, Jason enters, running a hand through his unruly hair, and offering Katie a sleepy smile. "Hero, will you ever stop being so nice?"

Trooper comes trotting into the kitchen, his tail wagging happily from being let out early, then having someone to keep him company more than usual.

Jason looks down at him and shakes his head. "Don't get used to it."

Trooper licks his chops, then goes to the stove where Katie is, sitting down quietly and just staring at her, starting to drool.

Jason rolls his eyes. "If you're trying to attract her, Bud, that definitely won't work." He moves forward and gives Katie's shoulder a pat before sitting down at the table. Looking at the clock, he yawns again. It was later than he would have liked...he had to get Katie home then to work. "Hope I didn't keep you up too much last night."


Carson finishes changing his clothes and takes one last look in the mirror to make sure he was halfway presentable after cleaning up and shaving. How he could live here and still be late for work was beyond him, but it wasn't the first time.

Rolling his eyes at himself, he hurries to go help Herb get things started for the day.

It isn't much longer when he hears the bell on the door and leans back just far enough to see out the kitchen. A small smile surfaces. "Stick around here long enough and you'll be addicted," he calls out, teasing Jess. "Milkshake or coffee?"


"Mmm...." Rocky cradles a fresh cup of coffee in his hand and tries to wake up as he and the others sit around the table in the hotel dining room. "Anybody seen Axel this morning?"

Max shakes his head. "I found a note in the bathroom. Said he walked to Mom and Pop's."

"Walked?" Logan rolls his eyes. "It's clear across town. It'd take him an hour."

Max can't help but agree. "Who in their right mind...all for a cup of coffee? They got good coffee here."

Taylor smirks. "Maybe he just wanted fresh air."

"Yeah, like the time he went for a five hour stroll in LA?" Rocky asks.

Taylor giggles. "We were so worked up, and he was so...not. He said it was good exercise."

Logan shakes his head. "They make taxis for getting around. I wonder if Axel ever noticed that."


Nine o'clock. Axel slowly enters Mom and Pop's, looking up as the bell rings. Under his denim jacket and hoodie, he's a little warm after the brisk walk, but it had been cool enough this morning that he'd wanted the extra layer.

Heading to the counter, his eyes scan the room, taking in the details. A few people were here this morning...though probably most of the regulars had already come and gone.

Reaching a stool, he slides up on one to sit down, and gives a sidelong glance to Jess only a few seats away. He gives a smile and wave to Mabel. "Long time no see. I hope you got coffee brewing this morning."

My Little Angel

*Though Carson's words made her feel good Jess wasn't to sure she really did believe she deserved better. Though she couldn't help but admit it did make her feel good to hear Carson say it to her. Giving another smile as they reach TJY Jess gives a small nod. Behind Carson eyes she could see his pain of loss and new her was doing his best She could only hope he would find him away just like she hoped the same for herself.*

"Parting a such a sweet sarrow eh?!"

*Jess steps up to the door and pushes it open stop and turning back to Carson for a quick moment.*

"I sure hope we do see each other again. It's nice having someone to talk to. Goodnight Carson."

*Slipping inside Jess closes the door behind her and heads down the hall and to what she called her room for the night hoping sleep would come easy but knowing it wouldnt and would be filled with night terrors.*

*Katie can't help the laugh that escaps her lips. No matter what happend or how life wen't Katie new her and Jason would always be closer than anyone new. Pushing her head into Jason's leg a little more Katie cross her arms across her chest and closes her eyes again she was starting to get tired once more.

GoodNight J. See you in the AM.

The smile stay spread across Katie's face as her mind shuts off but not fully and soon sleep once again comes to her.*

Night turns to day as the sun comes up. Casting its color to the sky. Some are awake to see it and some still asleep only to try and find the colors in there mind. Some stay snuggled with friends, while others wake to make new ones. Maybe not even sure why they do, what they are. Even those who had a late night wake early not sure why but something told them to get up. Some stop and enjoy the morning before work taking in the smell the colors and the should. While others watch the new life that unfolded before there eyes. Thanking God for the new day.

*The silent figure moves from the window as a small tear falls from her eye. How she remember the old times and the fun. She's hated it at first because it would scar her every time, but over time she expected it and liked trying to be up in time. As Carson's figure is out of site Misty moves away from the window sinking back down on her bed. Why had she woken up so early? She felt tired still but something had told her to get up and when she did, Carson was outside the window. Some how did she know he was there or was it just a coincidence. Eather way Carson had been there, and Misty had seen him, and a new pain formed in her heart.*

*The sound of bacon sizzles in a pan and the small of bacon lingers through through the air ass a soft hum comes from Kaite's lips as she stands at Jason's stove making Bacon, Eggs and Toast. On the small table behind her two places were set with a glass of OJ for each of them. Katie new Jason needed the sleep so she didn't want to wake him but she new the smell from the food would do the job for her.*

*Rolling out of bed Jess opens her eyes. It was early, and she was awake that was a new one. Though it didn't saprise her after the dreams she had, had that night.

Sitting up and swinging her legs out of bed Jess looks at the clock it was 8 o'clock. Jess didn't want to wake but she new now that she was up it would be impossable to go back to sleep.

Grabbing a towle Jess head to the shower to wash up for the day and maybe figure out something to do so early.

A few minutes pass and Jess steps outside of TJY taking in the crisp and cool air. Pulling the hood from her hoody over her head Jess pulls the strings a little to tighten it and starts on her way. Not sure where she was walking to Jess just let her feel be her guide. It was a nice morning and she might as well make the best of it.

Time pass and Jess finds herself in a famiure area. Outside Mom and Pop's. Being lost in thought Jess didn't even relize she was walking this way but now that she was here she might as well stop and maybe get something warm to drink. Looking down at her watch the time was 8:40, good they had opened 30 min ago. If she was lucky maybe Carson was even working today.*

*A cry rings out through the air as a child calls for there parent. Almost instintly a new daddy wakes and moves from the bed letting his sleeping wife rest. She had been up most of the night already and it was his turn now to comfort the small child as she got some rest.

Moving out of there bed room and down the hall he enters the childs room. Going to the crib he smiles down at his daughter that ment the world to him. With his strong hand yet gentil with this small child he reaches down and picks her up craddling her with great care. Offering her shelter and protection giving the promise to always be there when she cryed. In a deep but soft voice his whispers.*

"Hi little one. You know its morning?"

*Moving twords the homemade rocking chair the father sits down with there child gently rocking watching his little daughter suck her thumb as she looks back up at him with a smile on her face and her big brown eyes showing how much love she had already had for her father.*

"Your so pretty, just like your mom. Mmmm....Baby Kalyee, my little angel. Daddy's little girl."

*Wes could never thank God enough for the two prescuse gifts he had given him. All he had asked for and more. How he was happy beyond belief, and how his heart thumped with joy. Wes continues to talk to Kaylee, telling her little storys as she coos and laughs filled the house with a warmth that was unexplainable.*

Dawn breaks with quesions

For a moment, Carson reverts the conversation back to Jess, having heard something he didn't like. "First off...no one deserves a bloke like Peter so you can forget that excuse. Maybe that's all you knew, but that doesn't mean you didn't deserve better."

He throws Jess a stern glance for emphasis, but lets that subject drop for now.

Quiet for several minutes, Carson knows he wants to answer Jess' question, but wasn't sure how. Finally he just shrugs. "I don't know if she's happy or not. But I hope she is. Like you deserve someone better than Peter, Misty deserves someone better than me...and it looks like she's found someone. So... yeah, I hope she's happy."

Walking up to the TJY building, Carson stops at the door. "I guess this is where we part." He looks at Jess for a moment, knowing that she was still hurting, but at least on the road to recovery. "Goodnight, Jess... I'll be seeing ya."


Jason listens to the silence, Katie's words running through his mind. He gives a little grin. After all we've been through, I don't think anything could creep me out.

Thinking of himself, he's just not sure. I don't know...I just don't know... I think Rick's right... that whatever it is inside me found the one thing that's ever caused terror, so it just latches on to that whenever I get too worked up, or my emotions just reach their limit. As far as working through it all...I don't know that either...I just wish I could relive it all once and get it over with.

Receiving more, he almost rolls his eyes, though isn't seen in the darkness. You have absolutely nothing to thank me for. I owe you my life and I'd give it in a heartbeat if I had to...

He stops, a wry humor forming. And if I didn't know that me being gone would kill you anyway.

Jason's hand moves down to ruffle Katie's hair. Shut down that crazy mind. You're keeping this dead man awake.


The sun can never be stopped from completing its rounds, not the earth from its rotation. No matter the will to hold onto the night, it must pass, and a new day must be born.


Carson leans over and laces up his tennies. He’d had just enough money leftover from his last paycheck to buy a new pair, and he was determined to use them as he’d intended. He’d even checked in with Herb before spending the money…he didn’t need to, but he’d wanted to, just to be in the habit of having someone know what he was doing with his money. Until these daily cravings stopped, he wasn’t going to trust himself.

Standing up, he zips up his hoodie and heads out in his sweats, slapping on his baseball cap as he goes.

The morning is chilly, and he can almost see his breath. The cold air is harsh on his lungs and as he sprints into a jog, he’s reminded just how out of shape he really is.

He doesn’t have a destination in mind. The sun isn’t even up yet, and the atmosphere has a strange grayness to it…almost a fog but not quite.

Carson’s feet pound the sidewalk as he takes one turn and then another. His mind wanders as he runs. It travels where it will, from memories, the past, regrets to frustrations and fears.

Sweat breaks out on his forehead and slides down the sides of his face. His eyes no longer see where he’s heading, but only the pictures in his mind.

After jogging for a while, Carson’s legs and lungs finally give out on him. He’d pushed too hard for the first time out. Stopping, he bends over to brace his hands on his knees, thrown into a coughing fit. If he hadn’t known it before, he knew it good and well now that all of his smoking had done him no good.

Coughing hard, he finally spits and takes several deep breaths, trying to regain control. Able to straighten, he sets his hands on his hips, breathing heavily.

Eventually, he looks around to get his bearings, and he can’t help his surprise. How had he ended up here? Apparently old habits had taken over, and while his mind had been wandering, his feet had found a familiar route.

For a moment, Carson just looks at Misty’s place. There was a part of him that wanted to run up to the window and bang on it like he used to, just to get a rise out of her. He remembered the mornings that she’d run with him, and how for a short time, he had felt less alone. The sun had shined in his life, whether he’d seen it or not.

Suddenly the gray is back upon him, followed up by the bitter taste of reality. Misty’s car was there, but he could not see her.

Finally having caught his breath, Carson turns, sprinting back into a slow jog, back the way he’d come. If he didn’t hustle now, he’d be late for work.


"Hey, Laura."

Laura turns from filling her car with gas to see that Scott has pulled up to the pump behind her. "Mornin' Scott. Surprised to see you up this early after you worked so late last night."

Scott laughs as he opens the tank on his car. "Yeah, well, when Reese wants a project done, you don't waste time."

Laura grins. "I'd have to agree."

"Talk to Katie yet this morning? I was hoping everyone had a good time last night."

Laura shakes her head. "Talked to Con last night. He said Katie and Jason left the party early - was kinda worried, but he drove past Jason's place later and saw his truck there. Actually, I thought you'd know about that...Katie didn't come home last night that I know of, so I assumed she was with you or something."

Scott lifts his eyebrows, a bit of concern creeping up on him. "No..." He starts to pump gas, his mind wandering. "Maybe I'll...or... if she's late to work, I'll call her and see what's up - make sure everything is okay."

We both

*Just stops and thinks about Carson's words some more. Working them over in her mind and than looking at Carson she searchs his face. Seeing the pain that was behind his eyes.*

"She sounds like she was a real good person. I never had someone I was close to like that. Peter was the first guy I even ever considered a boyfriend. I never loved him and I new he didn't love me but he was what I deserved and now, I'm not sure where in life I should be."

*Feeling a bit strange talking about herself Jess reverts the conversation back to Carson.*

"Do you think she is really happy without you?"

*Jess puts her hands into the pockets on the back of her jeans as she walks with Carson knowing there destanation was coming up fast Jess almost dreaded it. Slowing to match Carson's pase Just lets out a sigh.*

"Well...I guess we both have something hard to work through together than huh? At least we don't have to feel to alone now."

*Jess continues to walk as her eyes felt a little glazed the tears that wanted to come but she wouldn't let. Life, what was life to her now?*

*Katie lays stairing into the dark. She was happy Jason didn't feel alone anymore. The comfort, and protection she had to offer him that he liked and helped him Katie was happy to freely give without any question to what she would get in return. See that she helped Jason was enough for her.

No, your not alone. You won't ever be alone again.

Stoping for a moment Katie can't help but let out a laugh.

Ok so that sounded a little creepy but you know what I ment.

After everything Jason and herself had been through Katie was happy they could still be friends for now. It was always nice to spend time with Jason, and laugh with him. Katie was still thankful for that.

Maybe thats why you still have these dreams J, because you havn't really delt with everything. Maybe reliving all of it even the way you felt was hidden away and now it want to come out so you can move forward.

Katie thinks about her own words and wondered if they might be true. Why caused this inside Jason? She new he probely would deal with this for the rest of his life, but would it become easyer once he faced it. Would it not drain everything from him? Or would he always have to deal with the aftermath as well.

Hero's don't know best and they don't know all, but I try to be there for you when ever you need me J. I don't wan't you ever to feel alone through any of this stuff. Even if we are just friends, I wan't you to know I'm there for you.

As Jason shifts Kaite moves a tiny bit as well to give him some room and not to make him feel cramped, and than takes the position she was in before.

Thanks for leting me be your Hero J. It gives a certin meaning to my life thats unexplainable.*

Summer breeze

Jason quietly receives Katie’s feelings and deciphers them. It was second nature now…like simply knowing another language.

His mind wanders a bit, taking him back through time as she communicates…remembering their history together.

I hate it that you feel everything… I know it’s not my fault, and I know I shouldn’t have ever had to go through that as a child… but no one should have to share that with me either. It’s bad enough that the torment was passed on to me… it’s worse that it affects others now too.

He pauses his thoughts, mulling over them by himself until he expresses more.

But I guess… in a way, I now know I’m not alone. It used to be no one knew what I went through… at least knowing that you see it all, I know that I’m not going through it alone anymore.

As Katie shifts her weight, Jason retrieves his hand to tuck under his pillow again. He blinks back a couple more tears, though they’re almost gone now as his emotions start to settle once more.

My dreams are different now. They used to just be about the past…maybe mixed in with the present, and just a bit of imagination thrown in. Now… now it’s like I’m starting to remember things I didn’t before. It was always facts and physical torment. Now…now I’m remembering how I felt. I never realized how desperate I was…how as only a child I would rather have died that continued to be held by Alex. I guess…I guess I’m afraid that I will remember more that I didn’t before and it will just get worse.

Jason heaves a weary sigh and shifts his weight a little, but is careful not to move too much to make Katie uncomfortable.

Thanks for staying…I guess I needed my hero tonight whether I wanted to admit it or not.


Carson hears Jess’ question, but doesn’t answer right away. He was glad that Jess felt safe around him…at least he was doing something right again… at least he was still capable of making someone feel comfortable around him instead of hurting them or just taking advantage of them.

“No…” He finally answers her question, his eyes going back to the sidewalk as they walk. “I guess we never counted the stars. I did a lot when I was a kid…back in Australia.”

He pauses again, wondering how much he really wanted to talk about. It didn’t hurt as much now as it did…it was more of a dull ache. Especially after tonight and seeing that Misty had found someone else.

“She was like a breeze on a summer day, Jess. The only one that ever made my heart stop…the only one that ever turned me upside down. When no one else gave me a chance, she did…when all anyone else saw was an outlaw, she saw more than I even saw myself.”

Carson takes a deep breath. “And I cheated on her.” He shakes his head, finding it easier to admit, but still hearing it as so very foolish and utterly stupid. “Twice. Two strikes and I was out.”

They near TJY and Carson slows a little. “But I guess she’s happy now…and I’m glad. I suppose now it’s time for me to let her go…just finding it a little harder to do than I thought.”

Did she

*Feeling Jason's grib tighten just a little it gives Katie a strange comfort, just knowing Jason was close and he was ok. Thinking about his message for a moment Katie is silent. Thinking over in her own mind about everything and how there powers had grown into something more than when they first started out.

It use to be I just felt your emotional pain, I never new what was really going on other than how you felt, and if you talked at all the words that came from your mouth, than you told me about what had happend to you ask a kid and I new a little more what you felt was not good. Than as we grew closer but when our own ways at when I left the ranch and than you came back to Nevada it was like I could now hear what was going on in your head. Slowly it would get louder and louder as if you were calling me, telling me what was wrong. Than after that one time when you were in prison and we shaired the one moment, when we got to see eachother and I felt you without feeling you through the glass after that it was like..when you were thrown into an attack or into a nightmare I could see it. Almost like a movie. I no long just felt your pain, I saw it as well. Does it hurt me? Of course it does. No one should have to go through what you have J. No one, and it pains me that I can't do anything to stop it from happening to you. I mean I know its not my place, but I wish I could just take your pain away from you. I don't like seeing you suffer. So yes it does hurt me. but I wouldn't change this talent for anything because though I can't take away your pain I can ease it and that at least helps me think I am doing something good.

Katie shifts a little on the coutch turning so she is laying on her back though her arm still rests on Jason's leg. Leting out a sigh she stairs up into the dark. It was true she could bring back any memorie Jason had and replay it in her own mind. Like poping it into a dvd player and pressing the start button. Only to lock it away again when it was over. Katie often wondered if someone could pick her brain with out her knowing it would they find a whole section that contained things about Jason. Would there be one designated area that was just about him? Katie's never really thought about it before, but it made sence. Where did all Jason's emotions go inside of her? Did they store away or was it just like digesting something.*

*Jess walks along with Carson and listens to him. Looking up at the sky herself. It was a bold move but she was curouse why she wasent sure but she was.*

"Did she, your girlfriend would she count the stars with you? What was she like?"

*Jess lets her question linger for a moment not sure if she oversteped her bounds or not. Hating to feel awkward if she had she just keeps talking.*

"Hah, Your the only real friend I got now Carson and I like talking with you. I guess I just feel safe around you too."

*Jess turns her attachen to there sarrounding as the dark shadows lerk. Put the moon shown down and lit there was and Jess did feel comfortable and safe with Carson near. *

Do you?

Knowing Katie was there…feeling her so close to him is like a healing agent in itself. Jason just lies still for several moments, trying to get over the nightmare he’d just had…trying to wash the images from his mind. It simply never got any easier no matter how many times this happened.

Jason’s hand moves to reach down, feeling Katie at his side. His fingers rest on her arm as she speaks to him, and he blinks back more tears. His grip tightens just a little without him even realizing it.

Does it hurt you when I go through this? Do you see my flashbacks too, or my dreams? Or do you only sense my emotions?


Carson stuffs his hands in his jacket pockets as he and Jess walk. “Oh…don’t thank me. I need the exercise anyway.” There was more truth in that statement than he’d like to admit. Tomorrow though, he would start tackling that area at least.

He glances up to the clear, cool sky, seeing all the stars. “I remember lying on the beach,” he muses. “…counting stars at night…hearing the surf…” He sighs a little, bringing himself back. “Glad you stopped by tonight. Guess it was a little busier than expected.”

Reflect

*Kaite's eyes open though she dosn't move much. Just listing to Jason's raging emotions she knows he is ok but just waking from a dream. Gently wraping one of her arms around Jason she suddaly lets him know she is there and he is ok. After he lays back down Katie finally speaks softly though Jason had said nothing he didn't need too.*

"Sometimes crying is the best way to let you emotions out. It's not a bad thing."

*Giving his leg a squeeze again Katie stairs into the darkness, just waiting to hear Jason's quiet breathing again.*

*Jess turns around quick as she hears Carson's voice. Another smile though small slips to her lips. Giving a small nod accepting the company. It felt good to have someone to walk with, even if not many words were spoken.

The moon shown down as the two figures walked down the street. The air was cool, but it felt nice. Soon, all to soon it would get even colder and little hints of snow would fall even though it never stayed.

As they walk Jess reflects on a few things about her life. Where she came from, how she came to nevada, and how her path was paved. Why she was thinking about this stuff now she wasn't sure. She'd rather not, but it was there anyways.*

"Thank you Carson...for walking with me."

Cursed

A small smile surfaces as Katie settles down next to Jason, and he yawns, giving in to his tiredness. Images of the past still floated in and out of his mind, and he knew they would probably bother him tonight. But at least the worst of it was over, and after all his energy had been spent, he was too tired to fight sleep. He’d tried to fight it too many times in the past, just to wind up realizing he couldn’t.


Kyle grins at Misty and watches until she’s left before turning back around and trudging to his room. Not even bothering to undress, he flops into bed, asleep almost before his head hits the pillow.


The bell on Mom and Pop’s rings one more time, a voice calling down the sidewalk after Jess. “Walk you back?” Carson didn’t like the thought of her walking alone in the dark just yet…not until Peter had been put away. He stands waiting for either a yes or a no.


Running…crying...screaming… Jason’s feet pound the ground as he looks over his shoulder, racing through the shadows. He wasn’t in the house. He was in dark woods with no moon to light the way. He was running…running…someone was chasing him. Glowing eyes came after him. Fear clung to Jason’s heart, terror seizing his mind. He ran further and further. He could hear Alex’s laughter behind him, getting closer….closer. Jason felt like he was running in place. He was trying to get away…trying to reach the light. Suddenly he stops. He’s at the edge of a cliff. The deep ravine was so far down that it could not be seen, shrouded in a dark fog.

Jason starts to mumble in his sleep beginning to move, writhing under the nightmare’s hold. He tosses his head back and forth, caught in a world beyond sleep.

He stops, panting…sweating. He hears Alex getting closer and closer. He hears the sharp voice, the demanding tone. He looks over his shoulder at the oncoming tormentor, then looks into the ravine that was certain death. Alex comes nearer. His hand reaches out. But Jason steps away. Time stands still. He’s caught in a strange trance, weighing options that his child’s mind should never contemplate. And he chooses. He steps off the cliff.

Jason wakes with such a start that his whole body jolts and he almost falls off the couch. It’s such a move that even Trooper jumps and gets up to make sure everything is okay.

Jason’s pulse is racing and he tries to catch his breath, staring into his dark living room. The fear was still so fresh, so real. Even if he’d known the nightmares would come, it didn’t lessen the pain.

Feeling Katie still with him, he sinks back down into the throw pillow, a tear trickling from his eye, hidden by the darkness. Why was he cursed with these memories…

Scan

*Feeling Jason's foot wrap around her and having him tug Katie moves to make it a little easyer. Resting her head on his hip Katie can't help but smile. Lifting her head she sits up for a moment reaching her hand out and gently fluffs Jason hip before laying down again. *

"Well well J."

*Watching TV for a while Katie's eyes become tired, before she lift her head to check Jason than lay it back down smiling at Trooper. Than closing her own eyes she drifts to sleep but not to deep for tonight she new Jason might need her again.*

*Misty can't help but a little laugh and shake her head as she watchs Kyle trip on his way inside. As he turns and looks at her she brings a hand to her mouth to shield her smile and muffle her laughs.*

"How about you get to your room without killing youself and than I'll decied if you can take it from there or not. Because right now I see someone who is going to hurt themself before they even get there yet."

*Misty finally steps up to Kyle and lean into him giving him a quick kiss.*

"GoodNight Kyle. Get lots of rest and no work tomarrow."

*Misty smiles and turns around heading back to her car.*

*Finishing off her milkshake and seeing Mom and Pop's was closing soon Jess lays some money on the counter lets out a sigh. She didn't really want to go back to TJY but she didn't really want to go home eather. Peter could be anywhere. Giving a wave Jess turns and heads for the door stoping and looking out almost scanning the area before steping outside. Finally the small bell rings and Jess disapears outside.*

Couch

Kyle opens one eye, taking a moment to remember where on earth he was. It had only been fifteen minutes or so from Mom and Pop's to here, but it felt like he'd been asleep for an hour.

Turning his head groggily, he sees Misty and quirks a partial grin. "I guess...I better get out of your car then, hmm?"

Trying to wake up enough to function, he unbuckles his seatbelt and slides out of the car, staggering just a little. He looks over his shoulder once and stifles a laugh. "If I'm not careful somebody's gonna think I was out drinking tonight."

Still groggy, he makes his way to the apartment and fishes in his pockets for his keys, finally finding them in a lower pocket. Letting himself in, he trips over a jacket on the floor before switching on the light.

Turning to Misty, he gives a little bow. "Thankee, melady for your kind assistance." His glazed eyes and silly speech prove how tired he is. In the morning he wouldn't even remember this. "I suppose I should take it from here."


Jason raises his head and quirks an eyebrow as Katie sits down next to him. He knew she was loyal despite his harshness...but he hadn't expected her to stay with him. In reality, it made him feel all the more worse for pushing her away like he had. No, he wasn't ready for more, but he could have handled things differently.

Swallowing hard, Jason shifts his weight a little bit, making room for Katie. He just stares at the television for a few minutes, unsure what to say...what to do. He knew tonight would be hard...and he couldn't feel any better, knowing that Katie was there with him.

Finally sighing and relenting to ignore the awkwardness between them, Jason slides down further on the couch to use the armrest rest his head. Shifting onto his side, he brings his legs over and in front of Katie, hooking her waist with one, to pull her down behind him so she could use his hip as a pillow. "Keep the tv down," he mumbles, closing his eyes. "Or Trooper will complain."

Sometimes

*As Jess listened to the guy next to her, how in depth his words were and how is eyes reveled that he really meant and believed what he said. Strange he was maybe, but insightful and mysterious he was. Not to mention a smile that could lure even though who were steadfast. Yes, he we certainly different from anyone Jess had met before. But she wasn't sure if that fact scared her or intrigued her more.

Once Axel starts to walk away Jess eyes follow him. Thinking about his words and than shaking her head. Jess replys to herself outloud.*

"Yeah, but sometimes being alone, is safer."

*Turning back to the counter Jess looks back down at the counter and finish off her drink.*

*Katie gives Jason a hug back as he takes her in trying to keep her emotions undercontroll. Receving Jason aploigy Katie gives a small nod that she understood and exsepted them.*

"I'm sorry to J, I really shouldn't have pushed you like I did, and what I said I didn't mean eather. Sorry for bringing up painful memories."

*As Jason pulls away and heads into the other room Katie follows him and stands behind the coutch. Yes tonight she could block Jason out. But what if he had another attack, or if something alse happend. She would never know. No, Katie wasn't willing to risk that. Coming around to the front of the coutch Katie sits down next to Jason and kicks her shoes off bringing her feet up and under her. Reaching out she grabs the remote from the table and flips the tv on. Stairing at the screen Katie talks.*

"Lets see if there is anything good on tonight."

Apologies come anyway

Axel turns a little bit, one elbow still on the counter. “Mm…there are plenty of observant people…they just don’t take the time to figure out what they’re seeing. Someone could look at a rose all day long and still see just a flower. Whereas someone else can see the beautiful intricacy, smell the sweet scent, and enjoy it for the delicate treasure that it is.”

“Yo, Grease, you coming?!”

Axel ignores Max’s call as he continues to study Jess’ face, allowing her to see into his eyes. “Someone can observe a smile and simply say it’s a smile…” He pauses, a soft smile returning. “And someone else might say it reveals the mystery of one’s inner thoughts.” He gives a short nod. “One shouldn’t ever hide themselves from the world. It just makes it a lonelier place to be.”

“Axel!”

He finally turns, but not to his friends – to Mabel instead. “Thanks for the service, Mabel. Nice to meet you, and I’ll see you in the morning for a nice hot cup of coffee around nine o’clock.”

He gives as little wave, and pushes off the counter to rejoin his friends. He hadn’t asked or invited…but anyone who wondered would know when he’d be back.


Jason knows that he’s hurt Katie…again. And he could kick himself…again. No matter what choice he made…no matter the decision, no matter what he did…he always hurt her.

Heaving a sigh, he waits for her to return, thankful for the orange juice, letting the gratefulness out for her to feel. He didn’t know if he could have gotten through this one without her here or not…but he didn’t want to find out.

Jason gives a little nod, and after a few minutes, finally has the energy to pull himself up off the floor. The aftermath of these attacks was never any easier, but he was learning how to function once they were over, and though hard, he could at least get himself going again until he could rest.

Still soaked in sweat, he opts to head for his bedroom, leaving Katie in the hall so he can change into a dry t-shirt and more comfortable jeans. Coming back out, he leans on his bedroom doorway for just a moment, glancing down the hall to Katie. She would do just about anything for him…no matter what he said…no matter how angry or upset she was. Was it their connection that made her so loyal, or would she be that way, even if stripped of this bond?

Shaking his head a little, Jason approaches her slowly and without asking, pulls her into a hug. He was utterly exhausted and knew he needed to rest. “Thanks, Hero…for everything… and…I’m sorry I yelled at you. I didn’t really mean those things I said.”

Giving the top of her head a light kiss, he lets Katie go, turning to the living room. On nights like this, he would prefer to be closer to the front door. If anything happened, his bedroom was far enough away that he’d be clueless if he were asleep.

Easing down into a corner of the couch, he leans back, closing his eyes. “I’ll probably have nightmares tonight,” he tells Katie quietly. “So just shut me out so you can get a good night’s sleep. Take my truck…I’ll walk to work in the morning.’

Thanks

*Katie lets out a long sigh as she recives Jason's verbal and mentil message. It hurt when maybe it shouldn't, and Katie wished the words were differnt, but what alse could she do.*

"You'll....always be my best friend Jason. The only one I got."

*Katie tryed to force the best smile she could and new it was pretty weak. Going a say more the only thing that comes out is a single tear only the surface of how Katie felt.

Standing a bit straghter Katie moves twords the door knowing Jason's suger was low for a moment to compose herself it was the perfect out.*

"I'm going to get you some OJ. I'll be right back."

*Exiting the bathroom Katie makes her way into the kitchen and grabs a glass. Before heading to the fridge Katie leans on the counter for a moment. Katie understood that Jason wasent ready for anything alse. He had been through alot, and Katie respected that. It's just so hard to love someone you can't have. To lock it away and keep it as a memorie so you can see brighter days. It's very so hard, but I'll try again J, for you I'll try again. Swipping a few tears from her eyes Katie opens the frige and grabs out some OJ pouring it for Jason.

Entering back into the bathroom Katie hands it to him to drink. She new he needed it.*

"When your done with that I'll help you to where you want to go."

*Katie pushed a smile on her face as she slowly started to push her feelings, and love again into the closet again readying the lock and key.*

*Jess continues to watch Axel out of the courner of her eye. Taking note that he was still watching her she tryed not to stair herself. A million things ran through Jess mind. Was he going to make a smart alick remark? Was he going to throw her a pickup line like so many in the past? Jess tryed to tell herself there was no reason for her to feel uncomfortable. This guy was just trying to be nice. but after everything that had happend Jess couldn't help it.

As Axel's comment meets Jess ears she turns her head again to look at Axel. The color in her cheeks rising just a little bit.*

"Thanks. Maybe sooner or later I won't have a reason to hide it."

*Jess looks back to the counter for a moment leting out a small sigh and than her eyes return to Axel's as they search the deepths of them.*

"Your pretty observent. Don't see many people like that anymore."

friends?

Jason latches on to Katie as they trudge down the hall, hating needing her help like this, yet at the same time, knowing he didn't have to feel that way. He knew good and well she thought no less of him.

An ever-so-slight grin upturns the corner of his mouth at her final comment. You might just get your chance. But you don't deserve it... it wasn't your fault.

Getting to the bathroom, Jason lets go of Katie to stumble the rest of the way, barely making it before everything comes up. Just sitting on the floor, he's exhausted and feels no better than crap. It was the same every time...at least now he could start thinking straighter after an attack, knowing when it would hit, then when it was really over. Tonight he would be plagued with nightmares, but the worst of it was over.

Throwing up again several times, his stomach finally empties, and he just sits, leaning back against the bathtub. Closing his eyes, he doesn't even try to get up yet, even though he knows it would be safe to now.

So many things run through his mind...the past...his childhood...the present... Katie. He tries not to let her in on much of it, but he's too weak to close it off, and just lamely lets it all go. He felt terrible...he felt low...he felt guilty.

Not opening his eyes, he speaks softly. "I really am sorry, Katie... I had no right to be as angry as I was, least of all with you."

He pauses again and finally looks over to her, feeling ridiculous for sitting on the bathroom floor and having this conversation, but not having the energy for anything else. His eyes were dim, proving how destructive his own emotions were. "I just..."

He takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly, knowing he needed to get some sugar, but ignoring it for now. Maybe he wouldn't normally just come out and say this, but nothing was normal right now - it never was when he was in this state. "...I care about you too much to let you go, and too much to keep you, too. I just...don't want...to complicate things." He doesn't even know if it's coming out right, but it was the best he could do at this point.

I wish we could go back in time and I could make so many different choices than I did. I wish I never would have caused you so much pain. And right now...I don't want to head down a road of mistakes again... I know I don't want to be without you in my life... But right now...to avoid mistakes...to avoid the chance of heartache... I just... I want you as my friend, Katie. ...I do want more...you've seen that... but I'm...I'm just not ready right now.

Jason's eyes plead with Katie to understand him...to understand what he's feeling, even if he doesn't fully understand it himself. "Can we be best friends again?"


Axel hands payment over to Mabel, still looking at Jess. He cocks his head slightly, trying to read her face. "You know..." He glances away to accept his change. "That smile of yours is too pretty to keep hiding it all the time."

He glances back to her with a quick wink, though his face shows a real sincerity - not an expression of someone who threw out flippant pick-up lines.

Outwardly than Inwordly

*Katie continues to hold Jason. To her it didn't matter if it was 15 minutes or 15 hours. She would never leave Jason to do this on his own. She just couldn't no matter what had happend, what words were said, or how mad she was, Katie couldn't turn away.

As Jason's emotions and torment start to subside Katie relaxes a bit herself and the emotions she was taking in starts to slow and her down body feels heavy and tired. Receving Jason's apoligy Katie just shakes her head. She felt weak herself but musters up some more emotions.

Someday your really going to have to stop saying sorry. Anyways, I'm the one who pushed you and just wouldn't let you go. So I am sorry.

Katie leans her head back aganst the cabnet for a moment as she closes her eyes until she feels Jason move. The look on his face, and just the body langue told her all she needed to know about what was coming. Standing Katie gently helps Katie up.

I think you should of just puked on me. Would serve me right.

Katie ends her words with a bit of humor proving she was trying to get Jason to smile a little if not outwordly than inwordly. Slowly Katie continues to her Jason to the bathroom.*

Sick

The horrific images continue to bombard Jason's mind as he writhes in both the emotional and physical torture he was being put through. He'd been through this so many times before, but no matter how severe, long or brief, no attack was easy.

Jason screams as he's hit again, his throat going hoarse from his cries to anyone who might hear. He's grabbed again, and like every time, he is dragged toward that room. Kicking and screaming did no good. He hurt, he wanted his mom, he just wanted out of here. And there was no hope. There was no light. It was fading. It had been too long. No one was coming.

As Katie's hand finds his, he holds her in a vice grip, latching on to the only thing tangible that his mind registered as something real...something from reality and not his nightmare. But the attack still has to run its course, the emotions spilling over. Though the emotions had somewhere to flow...they had someone to draw them out rather than letting them torment Jason to a dangerous level.

Alone. Dark. Musty. The room was the place of torture. The room was the only world to this little boy's mind now. No hope. Pain. He just wanted it over. As a child, he wished himself dead to escape this world he'd been brutally dragged into. But suddenly there was a light. A soft glow. Far away...and a voice....a soft sweet voice, beckoning him out.

Jason had no clue that a half hour had passed. No sense of time ever remained during an attack. The shadows slowly begin to lift, like a fog dispersing before the morning sun. He was drained of all heightened emotions. They had erupted in order to settle once more until the next time. Now all that remained was a dull ache and the physical aftermath.

Jason is finally able to pry open his own eyes. He was cold, drenched in sweat. He felt arms around him...the arms that had always made him feel safe. He had Katie's hand in his, and suddenly realizes how hard he was gripping it. Almost unable to move the muscles, he flexes his fingers, loosening them, on a certain level, worried that he'd hurt her.

Swallowing hard, he just lies still, moving a little, slowly, slowly stretching out from his tight position. Every muscle in his body hurt, and he felt as though he'd been hit by a mac truck. Part of his mind wanted to think through what had just happened, and work through the reasoning as to why Katie was there, and how he felt about that, and where they stood...but it was just too much right now. I'm sorry, Katie.

His pulse finally calming down, his stomach churns, warning him of the next stage. He'd gotten upset on a full stomach, and his supper wasn't going to stay down.

He manages to get himself on his hands and knees, next to Katie, but he's still shaking too much to do anything on his own, and even talking out loud takes too much effort.

An embarrassment surfaces. It wasn't logical, but it was there. This was the time he was most vulnerable. Unless you want to be part of this mess, help me down the hall.

Safe

*As Jason goes into the kitchen Katie just watches him waiting on Trooper to come back. Once inside she shuts the door and gives he dog a gentil pat on the head leting him know it would be ok.

Slowly Katie enters the kitchen but stays a short distince. She new what was coming, she could feel it in Jason, but she could also feel he wanted to try by himself and that she respected. Leaning aganst the door fram Katie just waits, and watches keeping in toon with his feels so in case anything happend she was close by.

Watching Jason sink to the floor and hearing him call to her to stay Katie's heart give in and her anger is gone, all that remained was her longing to help her friend and keep him safe. Knowing the emotions he had inside and knowing they hurt, Katie could no long just stand there. Moving twords the sink Katie shuts the water off and than slides down next to Jason. Looking to Trooper Katie sees he is nervouse and gives a nod to him.*

"Lay down Trooper. He is gonna be ok."

*Gently Katie lifts Jason's head and places it in her lap as she looks down on him. Running her fingers through Jason's hair like she had so many times in the past. Soft hums come from Katie's lips as her emotions do the talking for her.

It's ok J. Your safe at home with me. I won't let anything hurt you. I never would. I'm sorry I pushed you but its ok now. It's ok, come on J...stay calm. Alex is gone, its only you, me and Trooper here with you. Both of use will protecte you. A Hero and her Sidekick.

Katie continues to run her fingers through Jason's hair as her other hand runs from his face down his neck, over his shoulder and down his arm to find his hand. Her touch soft and gentil. Prying his fingers apart Katie slips hers into his ignoring that he was still squeezing and not letting it bother her. *

*Misty watches Kyle for a long moment. A smile spreading across her face. The poor guy was tucked. Watching how peaceful Kyle was Misty gets out of the car and goes over to the passanger side opening the door. Giving Kyle a gentil shake.*

"Kyle hun, We are home. Come on, wake up so I can get you inside and to bed."

*Jamie looks back to Con a little bit of worry of her own. Things had seemed fine between Katie and Jason as of late but now tonight this. What had happend to make Katie so upset?*

"They would call if something was wrong right Con?"

*Jess catches a figure along side of her and snaps her head up. Relaxing a little as she relizes its one of the guys from the other table Jess cant help but notice he was looking at her, and what looks to be a little smile had formed on her face. Not being able to contoll it Jess mouth turns just just a little but half her shoulder hides it as she looks at Axel. A soft reply escapes her lips.*

"Hello"

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Sliding into the passenger side of the truck, Jason relents to Katie's lead, even though he was still upset over tonight's whole episode.

Closing his eyes as they drive, he remains silent, and tries to battle back the images and memories that were invading his mind. He knew they would come and dreaded them. He knew the pain that would be here soon, and wanted to run away from it. It felt as though he were standing on a railroad track, staring at an oncoming freight train, knowing that he would be hit, but unable to move.

He just needed to hold them off for a few more minutes...

Jason knew that he'd let his emotions get too far. He was an emotional time bomb the way it was, without getting upset. Him getting so mad had simply opened the door and invited in an eruption. The volcano had been quiet, but his anger had shaken it up enough, that at the first opportunity, it had, within an instant, found the slightest foothold, and from there, the pressure was building. Jason could feel it...he knew the signs now to know that it could not be avoided. He'd tried that before and it had never worked. The only thing he could do was get to a safe environment where he couldn't hurt anyone else or himself before the attack hit full force.

A bump in the road jolts his thoughts and he looks out the window, keeping his eyes from Katie as his hands start to shake. He couldn't tell if it was starting already or if it was just low sugar. Either way, he was not looking forward to this...it was going to be a bad one.

Getting to his house, he waits until Katie has parked, and is quick to exit the truck. He didn't know what she was planning to do...walk...call for a ride...frankly, he didn't care, but he is willing to accept her help inside, his knees starting to go weak.

Opening the front door, Trooper greets him with enthusiasm, but is disappointed as his master ignores him. The dog goes out into the yard but is quick to come back, whining a little. He looks at Katie, knowing who she was, and accepting her presence here.

Jason goes by himself to the kitchen and leans over the sink, splashing some cold water on his face. He doesn't care what Katie is doing, and doesn't plan on her sticking around. Even though he knew he couldn't fight off this attack, his mind wanted to try anyway. His eyes focus on the swirling water that ran down the drain. Staring at it, he suddenly sees not his sink, but the one in Alex's house. He sees the red from blood that had run from the cut on his hand as he tried to clean it himself before Alex got back home...

No... not again... not the memories... not those ones...

But it was no use. The emotions are in control and overtake Jason's mind, as if putting a veil of deception over his eyes, clouding reality as it melts together with the past.

The pain hits hard, and Jason slides to the kitchen floor, not even able to get to his bedroom like he'd wanted to. The water in the sink remains on. "Katie..." His longing had done a 180 on him, and his voice is but a whimper. "...don't leave."

Curling up in a tight ball and scrunching his eyes shut, he starts to shake, the sweat breaking out on his forehead and running down his neck. His breathing grows shallow as his pulse rate spikes, bringing torment to his body as much as his mind.

Alex comes...he's not happy...he's shouting...he has a broom handle in his hand... Jason shouldn't have been out of the room...the kitchen was off limits... The broom handle swings and connects with the side of his face.

Jason cries out, uncontrolled tears seeping from his eyes. His muscles begin to cramp as he holds himself in such a tight ball.

Trooper whines and paces the kitchen floor, looking to Jason, looking to Katie, then pacing some more.


As Misty and Kyle pull up to his apartment, he doesn't even notice. As soon as he'd gotten into the car with her, his body had given out, and sleep had taken over. Now home, he didn't even wake.


Con fidgets with his cell phone, wondering about calling Jason or Katie. Something didn't feel right...neither had come back...he'd though he'd seen Jason's truck drive away, but no one knew anything about it. What had happened? Why had Katie been so upset?

He looks to Jamie, the worry in his eyes.


As the chatter and laughing around the table keeps up, Axel remains on the outskirts, mingling once in a while, but spending most of his time observing. Once things start to get wrapped up, he's given the tab and money to pay, and heads up to the front counter. Waiting for Mabel, he leans his elbows on the counter, and glances to his right at Jess. A small smile moves the corner of his mouth. "Hi."

help

*Katie continues to to follow Jason. She could feel his emotions and she new they were raging and her being stubern wernt helping.*

"I don't care if you want my company or not, I'm making sure you get home ok now."

*As the car pass Katie can feel the emotional change once again from Jason. A wave of guilt hits Katie as Jason tell her to get him home. She had done this, she'd started it. Turning Katie walks back with Jason keeping an eye on him to make sure he is ok. Getting to the car they get in and head back for Jason's house.

Once getting there Katie gets out and trys to help him inside slinnging his one arm over her shoulder.*

....

“Aw Katie, bug off,” Jason growls. He trudges forward, at a loss as to where to throw his anger. He knew well enough not to hurt Katie with it, but it was just sitting and boiling.

“Just…go somewhere else and leave me alone for once. I don’t want your company.”

Suddenly a car comes flying around the corner of the block, the headlights blinding Jason for a moment before it speeds down the street. Blinking, Jason scowls.

But suddenly, without warning, his raging emotions have something to latch onto. One single memory – one that had the power to start the all-too familiar avalanche. Headlights…blinding headlights of that car…

Like a parasite, Jason’s emotions attack with force, working on his mind to play tricks an form flashbacks that are temporarily held at bay.

Stopping in his tracks, Jason spins around, almost knocking into Katie. His voice comes out stern. Less angry, but cold. A fear has surfaced. “Get he home. Now.”

3:34am, do you know what our kid is doing?

*Having the key's slapped in her hand Katie shows no change yet on the inside there is an emotional change as the keys dig into her palm.

Turning and watching Jason start to walk away Katie quickly follows still holding the keys.*

"Fat chanse if you think your getting away that easy Jason Stevenson. I said your not going home unless I go with you. So if you walk, than I walk along side."

*Katie continues to follow Jason. Drawing silent though her mind still raged.*

Fine

Jason stares at Katie for several long moments, sensing her ire and stubbornness.

“Alright, fine.” He slaps the keys into her hand harder than necessary. “Be my guest.”

Spinning on his heel, he starts for the sidewalk, aiming towards home with a limp. “Have fun,” he mutters.

mood

*As the lights behind her shatter and break, the glass flying Katie dosn't even flinch. As if not even fazing her. Her own eyes blaze, and her emotions continues to shoot in all directions. As if in her own transe nothing alse matters, nothing alse exsists.*

"Your going to have to make me because your not leaving here without me. "

*Katie steps closer to Jason keeping her palm up still waiting for Jason to give her the keys.*

"Give..me...the keys."

*Katie emotions still fly, and the thoughts, the words, and the compunication all mixed up. Some sentinces screaming to stop while other hold more hate. Neather willing to back down.*

"Don't be stupid and just do it before you hurt youself. Because your not the only one who is not in the mood."

Threat

Jason’s anger is only heightened by Katie’s return of harsh words. He deserved them, but they did nothing but stir his emotions more.

Her mention of him beating someone up creates an all-too familiar guilt that drives him to become more upset. Just glaring at her, then glancing at her outstretched hand, he moves to open the driver’s side door, shut off the truck engine and pull out the keys. But he doesn’t give them to her.

“Beating someone into non existence?” he hisses. He holds the keys out of her reach. “I think I’ve moved beyond that, don’t you?”

Pure and driven anger, like a lightning bolt is used with force. Suddenly the street light by the parking lot bursts, sending a shower of sparks and shattered glass onto the nearby sidewalk.

Jason’s angry eyes lock with Katie’s. “Tonight is not the night to push me, Katie. For the last time, let me go.”

Key

*Katie shakes her head still looking Jason in the eyes with defiance. His words stung, they stung a lot and hit home all to hard. But in retaileation Katie's own words slips from her mouth like butter on bread.*

"At least I don't lock people out, and push them away knowing good and well its hurting them. Only to return and think everything is ok."

*As Jason's anger flairs more Katie feeds off the emotion, intaking it and grow more and more irratated.*

"Temper temper temper Jason. I'd had to see you bet another person to non exsistiance. Now if your leaving, I am going with you. I came with you, I leave with you! So shut up, give me the keys because your in no shape and lets go!"

*Katie holds out her hand for the truck keys.*

Harsh words

Jason receives Katie’s sharp words, his own anger simply feeding off of them. Her statement of love only serves to create more turmoil as the battle within his one mind rages once more. “And did you ever think that maybe it just never would work between us?”

He stares down into Katie’s eye as she steps closer, gritting his teeth. Her previous comment about fighting like old times brought back memories he’d just as soon not think about. Though at this point in time, he wouldn’t dare raise a hand to her, no matter how angry he was.

Her question causes him to roll his eyes. “I don’t know, you tell me.” He cocks his head in utter defiance. “Or let me guess. Now you’re gonna stab Scott in the back just like you did me.”

As soon as the words are out of his mouth, he regrets them. He knows good and well that it was an incredibly unfair statement. The past had been his fault, not hers. But at the same time, his underlying motive was to get her upset enough that she’d leave him alone.