Carson chuckles and agrees to Misty, sidling out of the infirmary to head back to his desk. Heaving a sigh, he starts in on his work for the day, rolling his eyes at something Reese had returned to him...he'd done it wrong again.
Laura quirks an eyebrow at Nate as he orders her to the movie, then turns around and asks please. She can't help her grin, but calls to him as he comes back by. "Sorry, but I've got too much work to do today...I'll be working late, and then I'll be beat, I doubt I'd be much company at a movie." She keeps her eyes towards her computer, talking over her shoulder.
No words seem right...nothing Jason can think of wants to come out of his mouth. Seeing the tears in Katie's eyes cut him to the quick, seeing how she's suffered through all of this too.
Looking at her hand on the glass, he slowly puts his hand up to hers, his broader palm and longer fingers hiding hers from his view. The warmth of their skin warms the glass, giving a false sense of touch.
Jason just studies Katie's eyes. "I've missed you too," he says quietly. But he can see her suffering...she needed to feel him to reassure her of his presence...she had felt his pain, but he'd desperately tried to mask it for her this last month. ...But he couldn't hide from her. He couldn't keep her in the dark. She needed him to let her see inside.
Sending his piercing gaze into Katie's eyes, he consciously lowers his walls. Like a movie playing, he purposely cycles through the emotions that have plagued his heart this last month. The scenes brought to mind bring forth the driving feelings...his sheer pain at being apart from the ones he loved...the frustration at being behind bars...the fear of the other inmates...the desperation to get out...the anger towards the Agency...the hate of the system...the depression of nights filled with nightmares.
Jason's pulse quickens and his breath grows shallow as he forces himself to relive the emotions, his eyes still locked on Katie's. Words could not express what he had gone through, but Katie would know.
Slowly Jason calms his heartrate, beginning to feel the longing to hold Katie again...the hope that kept him alive in here...the peace of now knowing that she was okay...the confidence that his friends would get him out of here...the love that sustained his heart...
Exhausted from running the gamut of emotions, Jason blinks, breaking the moment. His new stare holds, begging Katie to be assured he is okay.
4/30/08
Open door
at 10:58 AM
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